Depression sucks

hi, I have been kind of depressed lately but not anymore. By the way one of my teachers is going to Australia for good!!!! Man, I'll miss her! Anyway when I'm depress, its quite hard for me to get over it. I'm only 20% depress and 80% happy. Let me tell you one thing that sucks about being depress. First is that you'll never get you want for example (lets say your cat died, you feel depress right? Well you can't bring it back to life!!!) If this is actually happening to you, then I'm sorry but i bet your depress. Its kind of hard to handle these kind of situations, but you will get used to it, you might not like it, but just go with the flow. Or buy another cat! I'm kinda Emo, but not a lot though.

It really sucks being depress, you might think that it is easy to make yourself feel better. Well its freakin hard. Today i was quite angry coz my old enemy was brought up again, and i couldn't hold my anger. I felt like screaming to the roof tops. I wish at that moment I could just be by myself. That would've helped me became calm faster. -SIGH-

Tired of......................( may contain some uncomfort) If your sensative, don't read! Plus i don't want to get sued LOL!

Hey, I'm going to China soon. Finally i can get out of this country. Can't wait!!!!!! At least i'll have a bit of peace for 5 days. I can't take this country anymore!!!!!!!! I wish I could go back to Australia. I really do. Its a shame though :( I always get sad almost everyday. I try to control it but I can't! Its just too damn difficult. Someone told me that if i think this country is 'good'. Then I might believe it but it ain't working.I need anger management class. I really do. I have an issue that can't be solved. Its not just about this country. Its also about the people in this country.I'm getting crazy! Sometimes at my school, my classmates will talk about the things that have been happening in Malaysia and most of it ain't good. I try to make me feel better but at the end of the day, i feel the same. The only thing i like about Malaysia is the food. I admit its really good!But food can't make me feel better everyday. You might dissaprove of what i'm saying but i can finally shout out how I feel! There is also one thing that I don't understand. I know there are a lot of rich people in Malaysia, but if your so rich. Why stay in Malaysia> go somewhere else. I would. You would be better off. That is just my oppinion.

You might be wondering that if I really hate this country, why don't I just move. Well I will I don't care how I just want to leave and maybe come to visit every once in 10 years. ok Enaugh about me getting angry. I don't want to be sued or anything. Can't wait to grow up!

Fit for a princess

Hi! I'm sooooo happy because on the weekend i bought new shoes, new shirts and new skirts and pants well actually shorts. My shoes are awesome! Can't wait to buy more!!!!!

Help me!

Hey! i am a bit more relax today. If my last post made you angry then i'm sorry but i had to really say these things because we are getting dumber by the minute. Anyway enaugh about Malaysia society.

I'll tell you what my Malay teacher asks us to do. She told us to write a speech within two minutes about what we like. I haven't decided it yet because i like a lot of stuff, there's to much to think of! What am i going to do! i have to pass it up on Thursday and i have still not written anything yet! The worse part of it all is that on the day of the speech, we have to say it without the paper, and if you didn't know me very well........... let me just tell you that i suck in Malay. I only speak broken Malay. It is just shocking to know that a Malay can't speak Malay. I can understand it but i can't speak it fluently, but one of my friend is worse. Not only he can't speak Malay! but he knows the bad words like bodoh and shut up and cacat. It was so hallarious seeing him understand what bodoh or cacat means!!!!!!!

Anyway I hope i can figure something out because its almost due in two days!!!!!!!!!! -sigh- What can i pick!!!!!!! i have lots of hobbies like: swimming, playing badminton,art,sing and dance. So it is very hard for me to choose!!!!!!!!

To Syafia Humairah..............

Hi, I have been quite upset no wait very angry lately. This is because of what i heard in the news. I'm sure you've heard of it but if not let me just recap for you. A girl dies with bruces and cigerretes stains on her body. Actually her mum's boyfriend is the one giving her those bruces. I coldn't believe how stupid that guy is, she is only 3 years old and she dies because of him. The worse part is that her mum 'never notices' it.Palease how can the mum not notice the bruces on her body when she likes baths her or something she is 3 after all. She is also 4 months pregnant with the boyfriend's baby!!!!!!!!!! If he doesn't like kids, he doesn't need to make a kid. He can either get a girlfriend that doesn't have kids or not make kids at all. That guy really disgust me!!!!!!!! Now he is police custody for police investigation, but i hope the police will torture (beat) him until he cracks. Or the police can do the same thing that he did to the girl. I am also angry at the mother. 1st is for picking a bad boyfriend and secondly is that she claims that she didn't know anything about the abusing! That shows how bad of a mother she is! she can give all types of bullshit excuses but even a busy mum can tell if her daughter/son is INJURED!!!!!!!


She shouldn't even have a kid if she can't notice these little things.This just makes me angry and i can't take anymore stupid things that happeneds in Malaysia anymore!!!!!! I'm only 12 and even I know that this is the stupidist thing anyone could've done! Jeez people are really not civilised. I really feel pitty for those who thinks that abusing a child is 'good'. I also heard that the boyfriend passed the ball to her and asked her to return it but she was far away so she threw it (commen sense) and the boyfriend got angry and threw it to her very hard! How dumb is the boyfriend. I hope he dies with torture and he goes to hell!!!!!!

But these are only one of the millionth things that i'm upset about this country. Theres too many. I can't stand stupid people that act this way. Its not allowed in my book. If its a small matter, its fine. For example ( robbery), but if its like this! Then I hope they get whats coming to them!

I'm also upset at the witnesses, because they sawhim doing it to her with their own eyes at that exact spot more than once and they didn't try to stop him or call the cops. Only now they turned him in. Come on people, i thought your smarter than that but apparently not!

Anyway i would like to say to Syafia ( her name) that i hope you have a safe passage and may you rest in piece ( and also the guy will get even more tortured than you and he'll deserves it!)